biteme217

Feeling odd and both happy and down....hmm.

I want to shout and scream.  I wish to claw and spit and kick and burn down the picture everyone has of me!!!! Me, I'm different and unique and some might even call me a freak.  I am not happy all the time, indeed most of the time I'm quite sad. Beaten down and trodden on, only an endless mask.  I want to be numb and make it all stop....all of the endless feelings that I have. My way of doing makeup is outdated, my clothes even more.  The idea that I am damned for what I feel, think, believe, or who I love is absurd.  But I'm scared, terrified, and semi conformed.  There is no room in my family for someone like me, no place in society a s

So my old camera died ~pissedplz (https://www.deviantart.com/pissedplz) right after winter break in Californa plus I didn't get the pictures of Thanksgiving off of it either.  Really, really frustrating since i thought that I was perhaps getting better at aiming and getting things into focus...possibly not. On top of that I was hoping to use it to photograph my reptiles, with two beautiful leopard geckos and four corn snakes I always want to take pictures when they're out and about, and eventually I'll breed the snakes in order to have the babies and need pictures in order to make them sell well.  Although I suspect it's going to be at least another season, a.k.a. next year,